CHOCOLATED-COATED CYANiDE AND iNTOXiCATED CANDYLiPS

it's been 40 hours on the clock since I haven't heard anything from you. Not a single message, not a single note, just nothing in mid air :( Where are you? You told me you're going to call, but my phone never rang. I waited for you, but I guess time did not allow us to meet and talk. And right now, I am so disturbed. I can't even start doing my school work when I know I should have started it hours ago :(

What's happening? I thought we were good. I thought we were fine from the last time that we talked. Is there something wrong? Why do I feel I'm being left out? :(

Yeah I did screw up so many times lately, and I knew it was hard and I just made things harder. Yeah I am dumb and all, but I guess what came missing was that "I needed to know things." I got you mad, and I am so sorry for that. Everything was an honest mistake, and I should have known. :|

So what is happening right now? Shouldn't I rejoice because in just few days from today we will be celebrating our first year anniversary? :( But how come I feel I lost track of it? Or am I just being paranoid again? You're giving me reasons to be one! :(( I can't find you, and I am so damn missing you right now T.T

Tears fall and thoughts sweep away :(

Hit me back please? :'(